I wish i can turn back time when i was a kids. No problem, no feeling heartache and There's always a smile on your face. 

Im down totally, feeling like i ruin everything, im just a negative person and will ever change. Im not deserve to be happy. Yeah, hidup ni umpama roda, kadang kadang kita dekat bawah kadang kadang kita dekat atas. You've deal with it. It shows how strong we are. But... Im not that strong 😔