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sometimes i just don't understand what exactly i want in my life, it never stop playing in my head and yes i do feel like want to go far away from all this,  far away from the others.

27 june 2014 // Friday

I guess june is still my month. Here the story begin, Siti and i suppose to meet Fatin at Bandar Sri Damansara today since dah berzaman tak jumpa budak kecik ni, and i have to give her handsock that she bought from me.  Around 3pm , pick up siti  then go to fatin's house. Bila dah sampai of course you'll call her or whatsoever lah. so, i ask siti to whatsapp her. But guess what? siti told me that fatin with her cousin at Wangsa Maju, what do you expect? of course i got mad. rasa macam ' haih budak ni ' . lagi lagi dengan mood tak baik  because of "something", so makin macam hmm faham faham lah. But positive je lah, maybe she has a reasons. Then Siti ajak makan dekat tempat sepatutnya makan dengan Fatin. At first ada juga ajak siti makan dekat one utama but she keep on refuse. so okay lah ikut je lah groupbase pun groupbase lah. 

Sampai je groupbase order makan, borak apa semua then someone come from my back and close my eyes. automatic keluar my karate,  kaki sampai terangkat punya terkejut. Nasib baik takda sakit jantung. kalau ada? haaa . Okay back to the story, tengok tengok Fatin, masatu macam " budak ni muncul mana? " i keep on asking her " datang dengan siapa?" "jalan kaki?" " siapa hantar?" but dia boleh buat loya buruk -.- okay  then abaikan jelah, borak lagi. Then, fatin kata nak jumpa cousin. so macam " okaaay " and once again she come but  holding a slice of cake while sing me a birthday's song. i almost crying, but public public kena cover.

After that pergi DPC jalan jalan, menikmati keindahan Alam then balik. sampai rumah, Fatin call. She told me yang dia ada tertinggal barang dalam kereta. pergi lah check, sekali a there's a gift inside my car. it's from her and her brother. surprise for the third times, it was a dress. sangat cantik. thankyoou :') it was a simple celebration but it made my day, seriously

p/s : to those how treat me, give me a gift and even wish me. thankyou so much :') i do appreciate all single things you guys do for me. sometimes i do feel like its not my month anymore, but you guys never failed to make feel " oh it still my month " thanks again !

here some pic ;

a slice of cake that she gave to me

Life

Sometimes i'd rather keep it alone than telling anyone how i feel, its not a worth it pun telling you're sad, why you're sad, who the one who makes you sad, mad and all that. It wont change anything. Maybe they will try to make you laugh but it wont change anything. Even you post something to make someone feel mcm " oh terasa nya aku" or maybe " or kau tweet/post pasal aku? " 

No one will understand how you feel except for Allah, He the one who knew you well, how i feel all this time. Trust me im not strong enough, im not the one who can smile everyday. Hidup kan? Ada masa kita naik ada masa kita jatuh. 

But i never denied it good to have someone to be our good listener, its okay with it. But if telling on public macam ntah, no cmnt :) 

pray

indeed , Allah always there for us to be our good listener, and He knows what is in every heart :)

last paper

tomorrow is THE DAY. i cant wait for THE DAY. i need a break, i need holiday ! seriously . so akaun please im begging you, be nice to me. dont make me cry for the second time for my last paper . cukuplah sem lepas sahaja.

goodluck for me ! pray the best . A for akaun ! dean's list. aamin aamin :)

appreciate

its not the hard things pun kan nak appreciate orang? appreciate a single thing she/he made for you. dia dah try her/his best to help you then end up dia dapat something or i should said "makian" from your friend?

DO APPRECIATE PEOPLE PLS ! 

15/6/2014

BERSALAH?

yes this is how i feel right now, rasa bersalah yang berbakul-bakul and i hate this feeling. sangat ! the thing will never get out from your head. it will keep on playing till haih. kadang kadang boleh bawa sampai mimpi -.-